Friday, July 2, 2010

The Voice of God

It's a feeling...a knowledge that doesn't come from my thoughts. It's seeing something that I didn't see before; discovering the harmony to a melody I've sung a hundred times. It's a whisper on the wind, the skip of a heartbeat. So soft I don't always know if it's me or Him.

(You need to talk to her. Your child needs you, do you see the look in her eyes? Have you opened your Bible today? Be careful.)

This is how He taps me on the shoulder.


It's a persistent reminder that shows itself all over my life. It's a friend saying the very words I'm thinking. It's opening my Bible to a verse that speaks directly to my heart. It's a solution that presents itself while I'm still wrestling with the problem.

(You don't have to be "good enough." Wait on My timing. Be anxious for nothing. Use the gifts I've given you. You are never alone.)

This is how He guides me.


It's a flush in my cheeks, a heat within me. It's the sudden racing of my heart. It's a conviction so strong I can think of nothing else. It has brought me to my knees before Him. It feels like being filled. If I don't move, it moves me.

(Tell that woman that I love her. Do you hear what he just said...he is asking you for your testimony. It is time. She needs you right now. Pray for him.)

This is how He speaks to me.


It's one more breath. It's living when I was dying. It's taking one more step when I have nothing left to give. It's Scripture I didn't even know I had memorized that tumbles relentlessly through my mind. It's feeling broken and knowing He has made me whole.

(I can't breathe, Lord! I will breathe for you. I can't handle this pain! Give it to Me. I've done everything I can do to help her, I can't do it anymore. You can. (Phil. 4:13) I can't sleep, God, I'm so worried about this. "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything with prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, make your requests known to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your heart and mind in Christ Jesus." (Phil. 4:4-8) I can't do this on my own!)

My Son died so that you don't have to.

This is how He carries me.

2 comments:

  1. I have tears and goosebumps, both at the same time. This is beautiful, Crystal.

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  2. I just stumbled across your blog (i follow the reed families blog). I read this post and it totally spoke to me! Thank you so much for writing it. Especially the end... I can't do this anymore... I have done everything I can. Thank you for reminding me of God's word.

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